, @Cirrus Light
That is good to hear. I have similar things too sometimes, I should also clean my room sometime soon.. But I dunno, that is kinda far down on my list of priorities.
Gah. A buddy of mine inspired me to get a psychologist, but that kinda faded away yesterday and I started to feel bad again. Like, I really wanna do this. I NEED TO
do this. But… Gargh. I am not sure. I kinda just want someone to do this with me, I guess? — Sure, there's my mom, dad, sis, etc., and they're pretty supportive, but I dunno.. I need to do this with someone else.
I don't have many friends that I could do this with. Someone who's hand I could grab and walk through this. One guy is some "swag" rich kid, the other one can't (or doesn't want to) worry about it. I have one friend that I could do this with, but he's kinda far away and has his own responsibilities and so on…
I need a job, asap. Or else money will be too short. The state won't finance me anymore, and that will be bad. And I really do not wanna milk my dad anymore, it's really making me feel very horrible. He should not finance his lazy-ass son…
I need to sort myself out, and then I need to sort that job situation out. But I am not sure how. In my current state, I am pretty much unable to do any real job… Everything's kinda fucked. I am lost.
Sometimes I just wish that someone would just force me into some type of correctional facility so I can just get myself fixed…