@Badheart
I am and have never been bigger than anyone else. I’ve always had my mistakes, my failures, my issues since childhood, but I’ve learned to live with them, endure hard times, and try to do the right thing. However, the right thing does not always have to be a.) rightous and b.) good for others. Sometimes you just have to do what you have to do. And live with the consequences. Yet you must never give up on yourself.
I know how to live with a broken heart too very well. Meanwhile I am quite empty and indifferent in this. I’m just waiting to see if that changes or not. If it doesn’t, it’s no big deal for me. All I know is a woman’s gotta do a pretty good job to reignite my heart. And, of course, here I separate between sex and love. You can have sex anytime you want. Love… Meh… A changeling would starve on me.
As far as the end of the rope is concerned, I have often thought so in my life. But then it always came differently. I guess I’m just very lucky. Fortuna has always been a kind of mother goddess to me. For better or for worse. Unfortunately, I have already noticed that there are big differences between your country and mine in terms of improving the quality of life. Even if the bureaucratic effort is a real ordeal, and you are regarded by the authorities for a long time as a third class person, you can find help here much faster and better than in your country. It’s unfair, and I wish I could help you.
