@Lawrence Alpaca
You make some valid points…it just doesn’t feel the same since he’s been there for me, and I’ve spent years building this relationship…
I’ve felt like shit for the passed few days, and I just want it to stop…
I just wanted a best friend…I don’t really have any friends…
Ostracized…I think that sums it up…
I want to be mad because I never get upset like that, EVER, especially over some words…there’s just something about what he said that hurt me internally that felt different from all those other things. I felt like it broke me a little because I didn’t want to hurt him like that, even though I inevitably did so. I wasn’t even thinking about it…
He always told me not to say it, and if I did, that I was forever an asshole…I feel like I not only betrayed him, but I betrayed myself…
Now, it feels that I don’t really have anyone…
I saw it before it was removed, by the way…read it all…kind of peculiar…
Like you said…some things are so broken there is no fixing…
Everyone I meet never wants to stay.
Everything I have never stays.
You and I share some things…but I don’t know how I can go on.