Vent thread

Background Pony #89C4
Vent thread huh?
 
I was molested when I was 7 and it really fucked me up bad. 2 girls twice my age molested me while I screamed for help and their mom watched and encouraged them and laughed at me while it happened. I ran into the mother the other day at burger king and recognized her. It had been 18 years ago but it feels like it was just yesterday. I yelled and screamed at her in the parking lot and threw my food at her before walking off and crying, then getting the cops called on me. I ended up getting an assault charge and had to pay $191. The irony.
 
I have been having much worse anxiety and flashbacks ever since the incident, and have been very tempted to look at my court papers to see her address and go kill her. I have always been one to believe rapists and child molesters are not human, but are monsters and must be stopped from further harming anyone by any means necessary, and must be eliminated. I have also always believed strongly in vigilante justice for heinous crimes that go unpunished by the failings of the criminal justice system and the society we live in. However there are people that depend on me, and I can’t afford to spend a decade or 2 in prison because I killed a child molester. And do believe that is what she is. Any one capable of doing that is certainly abusive and inhuman, not deserving of the oxygen they intake into their fucking rotten brain. I have screamed and cried my eyes out at the thought of how many other little boys and girls she may have done this to. I want to kill her, but I can’t go to prison.
 
So now I’m going outside to burn my court papers so I can’t be tempted to read her address and find out where she lives anymore. At least not as tempted as I am now. At 25 years old, It’s been a really fucking hard life so far, partially because of this woman. I’ve spent a year and a half of it locked up already. I’m not getting more. I have to do the right thing for my family, burn the papers, and never look back.
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Also my mom killed herself 2 years ago yesterday, and my dad was manslaughtered in 2014. I was raised by my homophobic fundamentalist Christian grandparents in an overly strict household, while I am bisexual leaning gay and an agnostic at best. They never accepted nor really loved me nor my mother. I feel like I’m starting to lose it and become a very bitter person even though I don’t want to be. I was homeless for awhile a couple years ago and I haven’t been the same person since really. I hate myself and the rest of the world a lot of thr time and I want to end my suffering but I’m extremely afraid of death and also I would never kill myself bwcause of what it would mean for and what it would do to my loved ones.
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I hate this weather.
 
It’s been stormy for DAYS and now it’s super hot and humid. <(-︿-)>
 
It’s just spring and I’m wearing summer outfits…this warm climate is NOT good.
 
I’m usually very tolerant of heat but I already feel hot. What happened to the climate here?
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I…  
Wow. I am at such a loss for words. At the very least you have loved ones that, so hang on to that. I wish you well for you and yours.
 
Oh, welcome to the vent thread. You may vent here anytime.
 
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Take care.
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It sucks what my friend is going through in regards of him unable to find love and living in fear of his parents. I hope that he’ll get the happy future that he deserves.
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I think “OMG RAINBOW DASH IS A LESBIAN” stereotypes bother me more than most people is because like all of them are like things I’m like and I’m not a lesbian, I’m not even bi. Tomboy? OBVS LESBIAN THEN RIGHT? Isn’t attracted to the one guy who’s attracted to her? OBVS SHE’S NOT ATTRACTED TO ANY MEN. Doesn’t like girly things or act much like a girl? LESBIAN OF COURSE BECAUSE ONLY LESBIANS DO THAT.
 
Please just stop. Have you headcanons, flaunt them, be proud of them, connect with her, I don’t care, but just stop with the blatant stereotypes and acting like it makes perfect sense.
 
Generally I don’t care and by an hour from now I still stop caring, but for the purposes of a vent thread, this is a vent.
Background Pony #89C4
@Background Pony #130C  
@tehwatever  
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@icey wicey 1517
 
Thank you all very much. I ended up throwing my papers in the river last night and should, with perseverance be able to keep the issue behind me. I overcame my anxiety enough to ||make love to my partner ||for the first time in many weeks last night. Yay. I will do my best to be a good person, stay out of trouble, and persevere.
 
God it helps to vent.
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@LightningBolt  
Lol I feel ya. Athletic girl doesn’t always mean lesbian. In fact I’d say 3 out of 4 athletic girls are probably straight, although I don’t currently have a statistic on it.
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