[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@HighRollerHydra  
That does not make you stupid.

Well, I’m not feeling too bad right now… so that’s good
 
(somewhat suggestive… not really)ugh… I just looked through ~2500 explicit pictures on Derpibooru… spent like 30-45 minutes going through… and I can’t stop :/ lolz… within just a day or two I’ll have viewed all the explicit pictures on Derpibooru :P Nah, jk… but… yeah… 2500 images… damn.. I mean, a lot were dupes and stuff… but…
 
I didn’t actually need to spoil that… don’t know why I did :P

(okay this time it should definitely be spoiled :P)
 
I’m thinking of just putting the water in the other end… it would be a LOT easier… just squirt a couple pints up there and I’d be set for a while… it’s just really hard for me to drink the water… sigh
 
And I’m only eating twice a day spread apart by ~8 hours and then a small snack or two… so I’m probably BARELY getting around 2,000 calories…
 
Better… but still not enough…

@Rainboom Dash  
Sooooo, not quite as easy as I was expecting/remembered
 
I got over 3/4 of a pint… but I finally figured out you had to have pressure and a water bottle worked but I was trying something else before and it failed :P
 
 
Buuut.. I think this will be easier and MUCH faster than just drinking the water :P

oh yeah, this is actually working quite well
 
Gotten somewhere between a pint to a pint and a half
 
And once I figured it out it only took me like literally a minute or two to do that… I could NEVER drink that fast
 
 
my stomach area is starting to gurgle lol… maybe one more shot… that should be 24-32fl ounces… something like that
 
 
now I’m going to have to pee a bunch, though….
 
 
Meh… I guess I didn’t think of that… I hate having to do that too
 
Fuck.. idk.. is this depression or what the fuck is this…

@Rainboom Dash  
Are you drinking beer for the volume?
 
By that I mean if you’re drinking more to eat less.

@NotYourAverageLurker  
Not really…
 
I have on AVERAGE like 2 beers a day…
 
That’s still just like 300 calories or something… hmm.. I guess that’s something
 
 
this water is taking a lot longer to be absorbed than I thought… or maybe I just need to move around in a certain position… hmm.. I’m tired of having to hold it in.. it’s not THAT hard but it is getting quite annoying… I’ll just go to the restroom and some of this won’t be absorbed but, oh well

That was a little embarrassing.. there were people sleeping around me and apparently a lot more came out than I thought… they were probably like “wtf kind of diarrhea is that” lolz
 
K, I’ll stop talking about this now…

Damn it.. almost forgot to eat before I went to bed
 
It’s been like 7 hours since I’ve eaten and when I did eat it wasn’t a lot
 
I guess I don’t HAVE to have a snack before I go to bed
 
Hmm… probably should wear my retainers too….. it’s been almost 2 weeks
 

 
Water is taken care of… next time I’ll just have to lay down… that was my problem :P

For the past two days, it’s like people have been TRYING to make me a misanthrope.

@Agent Luna  
I’m not pointing fingers.
 
I have no doubt that whatever happened hurt you a lot.
 
But pushing people away who are trying to help and are giving good advice is not going to help you.
 
We do it because we care.
 
Healing happens at its own rate, that’s fine as long as it’s improving, however slowly it does, just as long as it is.

@Cirrus Light  
Yeah well having a ton of bad experiences makes me do that. Strangers out of nowhere usually have shitty things to say to me so I’m always on guard. Even when I feel like dying, I have some on here who just love to push me further and joke about it. It makes someone feel extremely worthless when others joke about a serious issue, or scold them in a negative way, and in turn makes someone distrust others.

@Pacific Glow  
Anything I can do?

Whelp…
 
I’m going to try to drink this coffee drink for protein and hydration… I know it’s not that hydrating but.. it’s something
 
I’ll try to drink regular water the normal way…. DEFINITELY flavor it with something… if that doesn’t work then I’ll just pour it down the other place again… seemed to work… just have to lay down for a while afterwards

@Rainboom Dash
 
Do you suppose you’ll ever try at least one bottle of Mountain Valley Spring Water? If you ever get it in a glass bottle it won’t taste like plastic, that’s a nice difference. I’ve seen it at Whole Foods.

@BarryFromMars  
Hmm…
 
If I ever go to Whole Foods.. lol…
 
I work at Trader Joe’s so I just buy my stuff there…

lolz
 
I just kept squirting more and more water until it got to the point where I couldn’t squeeze anymore water in… I was using a water bottle and squeezing it
 
I lost count of how much went in.. well… it’s kind pf hard to know because… could have been as little as 4-6 pints… could have been as much as 8-10.. who knows :P
 
 
This should keep me set for a loooooong time
 
 
Hmm… I guess once you get to around a gallon it starts causing mild water poisoning… eh…
 

 
At least I got my water in :P

@Rainboom Dash  
Umm… okay.

@Rainboom Dash  
At first, I thought this couldn’t possibly be what it sounds like.
 
Then I read back a bit.
 

 
Please.
 
Please just drink your water.
 
This is not okay.
 
It is time to stop.
 
I’m pretty sure this will put you in the hospital if you don’t, too. The body works the way it does for a reason. I think you’re seriously damaging important organs by reducing biotics needed in the gut for digestion. Basically, keep this up and you’ll probably essentially die of dysentery.
 
_{Somewhere, there is a list of okay things. This is not there.}
 
Milk, juice, sports drink… there’s plenty of things that can help. Water is best, but if you absolutely refuse to drink it…

@Cirrus Light  
Meh
 
Well then… I guess I’ll just have to drink coffee drinks and stuff….
 
Or fresh lemon in water
 
 
Or force myself to drink the water normally…. which would be…. meh……
 

 
sigh

@Rainboom Dash  
Water becomes delicious at night.
 
Especially if you actually boil from the tap beforehand.

@Pacific Glow  
Just remember, all the ideals of ponies were imagined and invented by humans.
 
We’ve got a long way to go, but we grow. We’ve come a long way from barbaric tribes of ancient times. And we will go even further than we’ve come.
 
We’re just a fledgling, growing species. We’ve barely set a foot outside our cradle.

@Rainboom Dash  
Won’t coffee keep you up?
 
There’s tea, hot cocoa, and like a million kinds of fruit punch and sports drinks. Have you tried all of them?

@Cirrus Light  
Well, I wouldn’t have a lot of it before bed… lol
 
 
Well, plain water (or lightly flavored) would be more hydrating… but the only thing I can flavor it with is lemon with it still being easily drinkable
 

 
That reminds me… it’s been about 6 hours since I’ve eaten… should probably eat again
 
I ate a decent meal but I wouldn’t say it was ‘big’

@Rainboom Dash  
Lemon… how about some lime? Lemon-lime is a nice taste.
 
 
@Pacific Glow  
Btw, the name matching the cute picture make it very hard to think of you as not an actual cute little pony :p