[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@Rainboom Dash  
I’m lucky to get one fucking meal a day.

@Cirrus Light  
Damn but you know.. I’m staying pretty much fully hydrated for 6+ hours after doing that without having to go to the bathroom a bunch.. because the last little bit takes a while to absorb… so it kind of slow feeds into your system
 
sigh
 
But… I guess it isn’t healthy to do it often
 

 
Lime… hmm.. idk… I like lemon :P

@Background Pony #C370  
Heh, least I’m not the only one with issues with that
 
 
If it wasn’t for me being on vacation with family and stuff, I probably wouldn’t even eat dinner…. and I haven’t been eating lunch… so I’d just have breakfast and a COUPLE of snacks.. that’s it…
 
So…
 
Yeah…
 
But, luckily I am eating dinner so I’m getting 2 good meals in during the day

@Rainboom Dash  
Yeah well…you’re out there and I’m talkin’ to you right now.
 
Always remember there’s people who give a fuck.

Hmm… I don’t think I ate anything when I said I should eat something which was like… 2 hours ago???
 
It’s been about 8 hours since I’ve eaten… had a little bit of wine but.. when I say a little bit… it was like… a little over half a serving of alcohol worth, MAYBE
 

 
 
_{I really should eat something}

Oh shit… I gotta get up in 2 and a half hours… I should go to bed NOW so I can get at least 2 hours of sleep
 
 
Should probably eat something real quick first…

I want to cry.

@Applejack007  
Cry on me then.

@Agent Luna  
Wouldn’t that be nice.

@Applejack007  
I can’t cry no matter how sad and depressed I become. I want to but I can’t. It feels good to cry, being a process of healing.

@Applejack007  
Why?

I’m starting to feel nauseous…
 
That seems to happen when I get dehydrated…
 
sigh
 

 
I just… don’t have motivation to drink water normally… and it has to be flavored with lemon…

@Rainboom Dash
 
Mountain Valley Spring Water* has a lot of minerals in it, the glass bottled variety doesn’t taste like plastic and it’s from a spring in Hot Springs, Arkansas in 2,000 acres of forest. The water takes years to get through the spring, it’s bottled on-site and it’s the water served on Air Force One; I’m recommending you something different from the plastic taste of Dasani or whatever.
 
*That’s the official website.

nvm…

Whelp… time for dinner
 
At least it’s frozen tonight :P I miss frozen meals..

@Agent Luna  
Yeah
 
 
@Tranquil Night  
There are times (quite often) when I just…everything comes to the surface.

@BarryFromMars  
But even water that isn’t oversaturated with a poor selection of minerals doesn’t go down easy…
 
Actually, chocolate milk goes down very easy… regular milk probably would too
 
 
Or fresh lemon water….
 
But… idk…

@Rainboom Dash  
Piinch your nose and drink the water.

@Rainboom Dash  
Then drink milk, chocolate milk, and lemon water.

God this fandom has a lot of conflicted people in it. Myself included, except I don’t go around hating people for what they post and respect their opinion, until it becomes personal. Might be why I’ve had so many issues with it. Yet I stay even though I put up with people’s hatred toward me over bullshit. Can’t join in or say something on topic without someone bitching “I don’t agree with your opinion” crap. It’s like a political war, that shit I see on TV that I don’t even know anything about except that it’s nothing but drama.
 
Yes it’s a vent but I’m also depressed and confused where to post so I don’t care. Hate me.

OK, so one of my friends just said that he had a dream where I kept messaging him that I was super depressed, and he couldn’t do anything about it.
 
I’m worried.

I feel like dying tonight. I just don’t think I’ll ever be happy. Tired of the pain of being alone and tired of trying to fix myself but I’m so far gone to be accepted by anyone. I don’t want it anymore.

@Agent Luna  
You will be happy again. When my papa died I did not think I would ever be happy again. Now, I have done tones of things that have made me happy.
 
You will be happy again too.

@warc9  
No. It’ll be the death of me eventually. I simply just don’t want to live. Even if I’m happy for a day, I wouldn’t mind putting a stop to my reality. It will always be this way. Always.

@Agent Luna  
Two things wrong there.  
Laws of probability and the fact that everything changes. My life, your life, the world, everything.