[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

There is a bad habit that I have not stopped doing, and you can probably guess it from my past posts on this thread. I do not want to tell anybody in real life about it because I do not want to be treated like a baby, which happened the last time I told someone about it. Yes, I realize that they did that because they cared about me, but that piece of information will not make me feel any better.I have not actually stopped doing it because it gives me something to do to pass the time when I am extremely bored.
 
Also, I think that my antidepressant has reduced my ||sex drive. I am no longer getting joy out of masturbating unless I orgasm, and I cannot do that unless I do a certain ritual while I masturbate. Here is a link to a list of side effects associated with Effexor, and sexual side effects || are listed as common symptoms. I am excited to reduce my medication to 75 milligrams because it may remove this symptom.

@Tranquil Night
 
A reduced sex drive is never fun.
 
On the plus side, at least these days you seem better.

@CrassMetalHead  
I guess. I certainly am better than I was a few months ago.

@Cirrus Light  
Thanks. That makes me feel a little better.

@CrassMetalHead  
Heh
 
I actually like having a lower sex drive due to anti depressants
 
I hate feeling the need to masturbate 24/7
 
As long as I can orgasm at least once every 2 or 3 days to get the feeling out, I actually like having a lower sex drive :P
 
And the only anti depressant that drastically reduced my sex drive was Vybrid… Lexapro and Zoloft didn’t… just enough to where it was.. nice…
 
sigh
 
 
@Tranquil Night  
Glad you’re better

@Cirrus Light  
Nice!
 
Love it
 
They look so cute <3

@Rainboom Dash
 
It’s weird to say I wish I was on antidepresseants.
 
I just want to stop feeling so bitter/sad/somber and just be happy with what’s going on with life despite the constant hell that happens.
 
..On the other hand, my therapist (who I had to stop seeing lately..) said antidepressents aren’t really good for people who are under a certain age (I’m 22).

I would like to know something from everyone here: What is your definition of a total loser?
 
Because examining my life, I’m pretty sure I fall under my own definition. How else do you describe an unemployed virgin in his late 30s with no friends?

@Nightweaver20xx  
And thanks back to ya. Just hearing that makes it very worthwhile. 10/10. Would do again.
 

 
Now if I can just stay awake another hour or two I can sleep all night and won’t ruin my sleep schedule… Will actually fix it.
 

 
@Rainboom Dash  
Poners are the cutest. “hug” is definitely one of the best tags :p

@Nightweaver20xx
 
22 year old who is called smart but is so scared of failure/the outside world that he recluses himself to the internet and music and stresses himself out to the point where his family worries.

@Nightweaver20xx  
“Total”  
complete; absolute
 
“Looser”
 
a person who accepts defeat with good or bad grace, as specified.
 
a person or thing that loses or has lost something, especially a game or contest.
 
You do not fit under the definitions of ether.

@CrassMetalHead  
Eh
 
Probably just worried about the suicidal thoughts that can POSSIBLY happen but is a really low chance
 
Besides that there’s nothing wrong with taking them at 22… wtf…

@Nightweaver20xx The economy’s in a bit of a place right now. Here’s to things working out, and that AI revolution happening soon making the need for employment obsolete :q
 
(and I mean “revolution” like a technological revolution. Not a revolutionary war)

@Rainboom Dash  
@CrassMetalHead  
I took’em when I was like 19 or something until just a few years ago. That’s really weird they’d say that. You might want to go for a second opinion somewhere.

@CrassMetalHead  

That sounds a bit odd to me.

@Rainboom Dash  

 
Pretty much that. When I told the Doctor I go with, he pretty much said that was the risk.
 
 
@Cirrus Light  

 
Pretty much.
 
 
@Tranquil Night  

 
 
I wasn’t so sure soo…

@Cirrus Light  

 
The current unemployment rate is about 4.5%, the lowest since the start of the Great Recession in 2009. I would like to know how all of those people have jobs and why I don’t have one.

@Nightweaver20xx  
Because statistical averages are just that - averages :q
 
I don’t know any more about getting a job than anyone else with good Google-fu. That, and my family’s always been heavy on education as a means to get a better job. And it sure is. Can’t just be any degree, though; STEM is king.

@CrassMetalHead  
TBH that’s a bullshit reason not to try it
 
The benefits drastically outweigh the disadvantages for the average person… yes, anti depressants can increase suicidal thoughts… but they can also decrease them
 
So… eh…

@Rainboom Dash
 
Who really knows.
 
I can try.

@Cirrus Light  
Yeah that seems kind of rude.

I can’t fucking down this beer very easily
 
I wish I had wine… I was really wanting wine… well, my parents have a shit-ton of wine in a fridge… I could go ask my dad what I could drink (some of them are really expensive and they wouldn’t want me drinking that) but… meh… too lazy…
 
I’m a really fucking lazy person… I’ll just drink this shitty beer and… meh…
 
_{I really should just go ask… but…… meh…..}

Anyone know another MLP site like here? I’d like to distance myself from this one.

@Agent Luna  
An image booru?
 
Why doesn’t this one work? It’s tagged a lot better than other sites would, has suggestive,questionable and explicit and semi-grimdark, grimdark, grotesque
 
And there’s a lot of images

@Rainboom Dash  
It works. I just come here too much. Dunno, seeing as I’ve been on multiple ones but don’t wish to go to the ones I’ve already been to before.