[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

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He’s not gonna kill himself and that’s not me mocking you but you’ve said you were going to so many times and you haven’t so it’s hard to take it seriously.
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@DarkObsidian
Well, after for now all scientists discovery i may have both symptoms of MDD and schizophrenia which is double dagnosis WHICH leads to me having entirely new icd entry 32.8 schizoidal depression. I already wrote about to an good universitet What else can i do?
Btw why haldol isn’t rejected?
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I’m sorry, but due to the current situation in Ukraine, I’m unfortunately unable to reply to this thread right now (due to personal reasons). This has nothing to do with this site, the people here or anything else. However, as a Bochum resident, I am very directly involved in the fate of Donetsk right now. And people I know there. Sorry…
Add: My grandfather, a German Wehrmacht soldier at the age of 16, had been seriously wounded there at that time and nursed back to health by Ukrainian peasants there (before the Russian counter-offensive took place). Since then, my family has had very personal connections with these people, this city (because my hometown has a direct friendship with Donetsk) and I am just busy elsewhere.
Add2: Yes, I know, we Germans were the bad guys as the Wehrmacht. But we also had friends there (no Nazis, because also we Germans, who fought at that time, were not all the 100% hardcore National Socialists in the wish of the Hitler regime), but here the question is, how far is Ukraine part of the Russian claim to rule and how much are we Europeans. I’m sorry that I seem really stupid right now, but I have something very personal to take care of here. I just hope help doesn’t come too late….
(but I have doubts here, because I could already partly not help my afghanist friends as I wanted to) I already notice how the stress also affects my depressive character. But I try everything I can to help at this point.
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@DarkObsidian
Forgive me for not knowing history, but I thought the Wehrmacht were the good guys against the Nazis who were the bad guys? I know it’s not actually as black and white as that.
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(cough, cough)
Well, I know you well enough, so I know that your question reflects the “confusion”, what is the “Wehrmacht” what are the “Nazis”. And I see and answer here with (hopefully) historical correctness, though of course I can’t speak with 100% personal impartiality on my own involvement. But I try to let my historical education prevail here, although it is very difficult for me personally.
1.) Before I get lost in my own blah words, I’ll reduce this post to the mentality of the Wehrmacht. What I think, what a this thread, which is, after all, mainly on depression, has more value than if I just talk here unnecessarily about historical facts.
2.) We Germans have a very ambivalent attitude towards our own past and especially our fighting troops. Because it was Germans (and their allies) who fought at the front at that time. That is an incalculable fact. I try to talk about it as neutral as I can.
3.) Only some of the Wehrmacht soldiers commit war crimes – how many exactly is a matter of debate in research. However, it is clear today that the German army as an overall organization and its leadership supported the Nazis’ war of extermination and actively participated in it. The Wehrmacht is therefore rated by many historians as a “criminal institution”
4.) I cannot and do not want to talk about the mentality that drove my grandfather to join the Wehrmacht (although there are many indications that he was recruited but not forcibly recruited). One can certainly assume that as a young man he felt it was his duty to fight. Unfortunately, I was not lucky enough to personally ask my grandfather about this matter, as he had already died by his own hand.
5.) The Nazi regime has done everything since it came to power to convince the German people that their way of life, thought and warfare is the only right one. Propagandistically, this was justified by the Treaty of Versailles. The so-called “peace of shame”. As I said, I didn’t know my grandfather personally. I can only assume that as a young man who grew up in Nazi propaganda, he too felt subject to this justification.
6.) In any case, and this is a historical fact, my grandfather fought on the Ukrainian-Russian front and was very badly wounded by a Russian sniper. He would certainly have died if a Ukrainian farmer and his wife hadn’t found him in the snow and nursed him back to health with so much love and compassion that he was able to fight his way to the nearest German military hospital. And then he met my grandmother in the hospital. A love story.
These Ukrainian peasants, the people without prejudice to his German origins, had the grace and compassion to nurse a wounded man back to health. Personally, I’m not questioning the political or personal background here. Perhaps they were afraid that a German soldier would die on their land. Perhaps other motives were at play here. Unfortunately, their descendants were never able to give a clear explanation for this. But my grandfather survived. And ever since, my family has borne a debt of gratitude to Ukraine and its people.
7.) Since his return, my grandfather has always distanced himself from Nazi propaganda. This corresponds to the attitude of my maternal great-grandfather, who held a much higher military rank, even worked in the Wolfschanze, who was a party member due to the very strict network between the Nazi regime and the working population, but who understood the politics of the always secretly condemned the Hitler regime. But was later acquitted and allowed to continue his business. But only because he was able to flee to the West with a small part of his fortune. In the East he would certainly have been sentenced to death.
8.) Here you can clearly see the difference between East and West Germany. In the West, the Allies allowed us some political retraining. As long as you didn’t commit war crimes, or exploit Jews or prisoners of war (which my great-grandfather certainly did, but at least he treated them humanely), you weren’t “bad” persons. We’re talking pure white-among-white politics here. My great-grandfather was “only” a businessman in the textile industry (we produced the uniforms for the Wehrmacht), as long as nobody was “sacrificed” personally, we were still nice Germans for that long.
Well, here’s the justice of fate: neither my family nor my fortune survived the later years. I am the last survivor of my family along with my cousin. And we will surely die out. My cousin is gay and I don’t want children. We who have done our duty (we were Prussians and fought like Prussians) but have also taken upon ourselves a great deal of guilt, we do not deserve forgiveness. We are just one of the numerous families who collaborated in concept with Nazi propaganda. We may not have been Nazis. Just like the Wehrmacht. But we didn’t prevent evil either. We are guilty. And that’s a fact. And that’s how fate is supposed to decide.
9.) I have accepted my destiny. And I honor that legacy, mean as it is. But I’m learning from it and trying to be as good a Democrat as I can be. But I am now 41 years old. I don’t know if I could ever be responsible for creating offspring. I’d rather die expecting we’ve tried to make everything right than pass my tainted genes on to another generation who might not be able to live with that guilt. ;-)
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@DarkObsidian
Ah okay. Cool story bro.
I was confused because of some old war movie I saw once. Nazis were holding some important people hostage or something,(I haven’t seen it in years and I don’t even remember the title) and some soldiers from Britain maybe (the movie was dubbed and everyone just sounded like the same three americans) team up with a German group that said they were with the Wehrmacht. Together they rescue most of the hostages and then the movie abruptly cut before the actual ending.
I probably shouldn’t take history lessons from such a bad movie.
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Well, I wouldn’t call that a “cool” story. But I can understand you. I suspect this is more about the “Battle of Castle Itter”. Free from guards from the NSDAP and the SS, Wehrmacht units can and could certainly act differently. But it was “unfortunately” only the exception. As a rule, the Wehrmacht, like my family, were members or sympathizers of “Prussian virtue”. Fight for your fatherland! Don’t question politics. We were military hardliners. As you can see them in Russia and USA nowadays.
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@DarkObsidian
Man i think it cuz who somehow involved sanction on russia cuz they didn’t agree to pit their regulations over constitutions also today nazi-like Kaczyński from Poland where I live is also involved in this cuz there were always refugees from Ukrwina taking all the jons and conflict in Crim. I dont believe mass media and I am concerned about crimes commited to mu health thay cause cns damages.
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Wehrmacht units and some random Waffen SS guy (Kurt-Siegfried Schrader), along with the US army, against the Waffen SS. Everyone forgets the Waffen SS guy who was in the good guys :P.
Weirdest battle, yeah, but it made one heck of a song
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Well, I can, but it costs me 15 € every hour right now. Until hopefully the technician comes today at noon, so I finally have normal internet again. In the best case scenario, I’ll be fully internet ready again this evening and completely available.
From the moment I am fully internet capable again, I will be available for you at any time.
If I worded this poorly before, I’m sorry.
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Well, I can, but it costs me 15 € every hour right now. Until hopefully the technician comes today at noon, so I finally have normal internet again. In the best case scenario, I’ll be fully internet ready again this evening and completely available.
From the moment I am fully internet capable again, I will be available for you at any time.
If I worded this poorly before, I’m sorry.
That truly is fucked, I had no idea about hourly charges.
First instinct was to DM when I saw you on here.
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@Beth
Yes, I took fentanyl 0.5mg. NOPE, myth. No addiction, no black out. I got short black out however after drinking at once 3 promils of alcochol. I seem to unlock a sort of “ultra instinct” abbility. I am doing a lot for my health. War is not big deal, I still got to do what I love - sparta bases. I am 128UXU and seek for remake of Farknockerstudios1’s sparta bases like Gospel, Untitled, Nintendo, Power ones and Hades Black ones like superion & hyperion ones.
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I got respect, but I am also seen as a someone with health problems.
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Oh i believe you on the addiction thing. I can’t afford anything that’s going to make me lazier than i already am, so I haven’t dabbled in opioids much. Maybe people could do stuff like cleaning on them, I don’t know.
What’s the ultra instinct? Unlocked it getting high? I feel like I done something like that by now.
You making music? That’s something good to focus on. I draw a lot. I’ve made some simple MIDI music, but i’m not usually so inclined to do so.
Your link doesn’t work for me btw.
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