I lack emotion, simply put.
And if you lack emotion, your not worth a therapist or such’s time since you do not see how emotionally charged they are nor take their actions seriously.
2 years comes the reckoning and I either live or die, suicide is a personal choice.
Why do people always have to attempt to prevent it, they don’t consider your personality or situation, they’re only reason being “it’s the right thing”.
Depression is not a thing for me, suicidal thoughts are not a symptom of depression, and it’s harming other people of other mental illness cause “depression first come first serve” and how “it’s the biggest problem”
Now. I’m not saying I haven’t had emotion before, I remember feeling happy and sad, and regretful, it’s just through environmental and genetic factors, I got desensitized to the world and myself, the internet and past experiences contributing to this.
And no, I’m not gonna do it right now if you just read the first bit and went “oh mi god!! He gonna kill self!!”.
People are always around you, learn to live with it, you will always meet a person, see a person, be a person. It’s how society works.
Anyways, I’d say my method id be choosing so you have to suffer the least in death, but the admins get pretty angry about that stuff, so I apologize, might get banned another 6 months for writing this even, knowing moderators can be funny.
2023 here we come, failure or accomplishment, I will see.
People are too picky about who other people are anyways. Judging others by a whim, cause “oh they like scat” so they must be out to murder me right?
Anyways goodnight. Slingring/Niskelis Philli