As a final statement,I’m gonna write this fucking encyclopedy.
Let’s name it:David,the history no one wanted to know.
2 and a half years ago,me and him meet in a group chat,in that time,he was in a relationship with another guy,and I just talked to him regularly and RP with him sometimes.
Time passed by and they broke up,he was depressed,sad and wanted to pill himself to death,so I tried to cheer him up,I started to know him better,spend more time with him and found out he was a very kind person on the inside,but cold outside.
3 months since I started to know him better,I started to feel something special for him,I was so confused,I never felt somethin similar to that,because at that point,I was straight and never felt what real love for someone was.
I decided to tell him the truth,that I liked him,and he told me he felt the same.
I felt so good,so full on the inside,every day I spent talking with him made me more and more happy.
But things changed,suddenly,he wasn’t as cheerfull as he used to be,he seemed angry most of the time,and started to ignore me,insult me and even block me for days,I was very sensitive back then,and these kinda things made me cry or even harm myself because I felt he was like that because I was being mean to him,but no,it was because his classmates picked on him,I understood his mood,and told him if he could change it a litte for me,but didnt work out.We were like this,like,half a year.
His mood got better,but mine got worse,because I got redpilled as fuck about life,got depressed and became a more serious person.
Then,I started…how to say it,to get very lucky at my unboxes at TF2 (Let’s explain this in a simple way,you know those knifes of CS:GO that cost 600 $ irl? Yeah? Well,TF2 is similar,but with hats.)
I started to unbox unusuals,and got pretty rich at the video game scheme.
This,made him kinda jealous and angry,because he couldn’t get a job to open crates like me,or wasn’t never lucky.
To compensate this I bought him some games so he wasn’t that mad,he thanked me and chilled a bit for some weeks.
But,he started to want more and more games,I had plenty of money back then because I had an estable job,so I bought everything to him,I loved him and I wanted to share my luck with him.
But when I couldn’t get him a game or something,he got mad,and started to swear at me,this is where things started to get rotten,because that seemed kinda like explotation for me.
More time happened,it was my birthdat and he bought me arround 100 $ of things,I was really cheerful and thanked him alot.
Arround 2 months passed and he started to regret the choice of giving me all that stuff.Because he got on problems with his parents or couldn’t buy some things for himself
Then he became less cold with me,but he keeped on requesting games and stuff wich I couldn’t get,because my job season ended and he got mad and treated me like shit for some months.
It was his birthday and I decided to give him back the same cuantity of money he gave me on my bd.I afforded all that i could and gave it all to him.
After this,he started to constantly call me retard,as a “joke” wich I didn’t like.
Discussions here and there for thypical relationship things,wich sometimes ended up with him trying to break up with me,I didn’t want to loose him so I tried my best to do my best with him.
More and more discussions,and I got to a point where I decided “Enough,he is exploting me” and told him I wanted to break up,he said “okay”,but an hour later talked me back and said he was sorry,that he regret everything he did and called me and wanted to try again.I said yes,but at that moment,I had changed and seem the things the way he used to.
Everything was bullshit,only discussions and swears time to time,we discussed for everything,he was mad because i was excluding him from my arts and other thigs,so I got him a few arts but he didnt seem to aprecciate ‘em at all.
I know I was being rude at that point,but didn’t stop,I got worse and more mean.At this day I don’t know why.
Months happened and we are here right now,at what seems to be my last discussion with him.
I’m sorry about everything.
I know I was bad
I know I got out of my nerves
I know I didn’t do the right things
I know I said I’ll sunk him and similar shit.
But in the end,I’m sorry,it is my fault that this relationship didnt work eventho he tried to do so.
I’m not a bad person,I care about my friends and everyone that surrounds me.I just got upset really easily and said things I didn’t want to.
If you readed all of this and continue to think that I don’t deserve another chance,you’re on your right.
I’m sure I forgot a lot of stuff in this history,but this is the most important.
I hope you all understand and spare me.
Thanks for reading,David out.