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@HJSDGCE  
I’ve also been bullied, and I still occasionally cry about those dark times.  
But I only cry for like 10 minutes, and it feels like nothing bad happens after I cry.  
Sounds weird, but that really happens to me.  
Hence why I can relate to Sunset Shimmer and ultimately like EqG more than FiM, even if I’m trying to like it more than EqG.  
Also, you are welcome.

@atalarikt  
That makes me feel a lot better.
 
It’s kinda weird when you say that, seeing how a large part of my life consists of me being either bullied, not given a choice and forced to live to high expectations.
 
I was bullied during my time at school, both physically and mentally. It even reached the point where I got into fights (which I regretted).
 
I actually wanted to go to art school but instead, I’m at engineering school. I didn’t get to make this choice.
 
Everyone expected me to be intelligent, sociable and religious. I’m not smart, I don’t talk a lot and I’m not that religious. Yet, they still expect me to be such.
 
My life is just full of… crap.
 
And here, you say something I’ve never heard of before.
 
Thank you.

@HJSDGCE  

 
Dude, you’re one of the kindest human beings I’ve ever found in this booru. You know, for a booru about a show which teaches kindness, there aren’t so many kind people here. You and SeraphimDawn are just some of those kind people, at least to me.

@GERgta  
Well your friends must active in some other way and/or strong-minded. I’m here to advice people who are going through the certain hell on earth

@HJSDGCE  

I don’t see why you would say that. You seem pretty decent to me. Express yourself however you want to, I am glad that you are willing to go that step. *salutes*
 
Oh yeah, an old friend of mine added me again. Maybe I will tell you guys a little story about him (knew him for 9 years). A real sweetheart. But right now I am very sick. My head hurts like hell, and my throat is killing me. I just woke up and feel tired again. Ugh .-.
 
Much love, peeps.  
Later.

@GERgta  
When I’m in college (for real), I’m gonna write a bunch of stuff into a book and deliver it to my parents.  
I’m gonna call this my Codex and I want my parents to read it. It will contain pretty much every bit of things they think they know (but is false) about me.
 
I suck at telling them but writing is how I express myself.
 
If they can understand from this, they will understand me. It will hurt both them and me but if I can’t do it, I can’t call myself a human being.

@And Brother I Hurt People  
Same here. A friend told me that this is pretty normal. People make stupid decisions when tired. I just gave away all my TF2 items.  
>wakes up, immediately regrets decision
 
@Gentlecolt  
I have many friends who do not exercise, and they aren’t depressed. I dunno, I am not the sports guy. And I shouldn’t do sport till I gained some weight, I really don’t want to loose any of it, seeing as I am pretty thin. I think I am slightly below the recommended weight for my size. And I am really trying to gain some weight, it’s not easy. Soo.. No sport for me.

Monthly reminder: go do some exercise.
 
Ever since I started properly exercizing; depression gone. Just like that. Sometimes it tries to crawl back from the shadows, but nah - it’s under control now.
 
In fact, I just came back from a 6 km jog and guess what, feels great man.
 
You can do it. You have to do it. We we’re programmed to move. Problems arise if you neglect it

@GERgta
 
I think it’s worse at night. During the day, I can distract myself fairly easily. At night, it’s so much easier to lie there and tear myself down.

@And Brother I Hurt People  
Over 9000 posts, GG.
 
I feel ya, I have the exact same thing. I do not know if any of my friends are genuine. Do they care? Or are they just using me? Does it make a difference? Dunno. I also agree with the “coming down” part - Disgusting process .-.
 
“What shall I do about it?” - Is what you probably ask yourself many times.
 
“I wish I would know the answer. Nobody seems to know.” - And this kinda makes you question everything in life.
 
“What do?”  
Shit’s complicated..
 
EDIT: I kinda feel tired.. I’ll be back.

I think I’m coming down again.
 
The worst part is coming down and not the actual bottom. Because going down, you’re struggling so hard to stay up there, because goddamn it, you are so close, how hard can it be to be afloat? And then you’ve gotta evaluate everything, you have to ask your friends if they actually care about you, and of course they’ll say yes, you know that they’re going to say yes, and while most of them are clueless and have no idea what you’re going through there’s always the few that you can’t help but feel are thinking “not this again”. The bottom, well, there’s nothing down there I haven’t experienced before. I’m ready.

@HJSDGCE  
Fight for your right, do not let anyone opress you. Take the sword, barge through the door and yell “LEROY JENKINS!”.
 
If you aren’t doing anything, nothing will happen. You have to stand up for yourself, it can be worth it. Do not be a robot following orders.
 
I have this friend, her parents said that I was a danger to her because I told them my opinion about their crappy parenting. They blocked me from her facebook - without my friend’s consent. But I wrote her parents a long-ass message and put them in their fucking place. It was something like this: “If I want to write your daughter, I will do so. I do not have to follow your orders, and I will not stand for your disrespect and authority. I do not give a damn about your orders.” - I still write with her to this day.
 
Stand up, and just say “Fuck this. I’m not doing this bullshit”. It doesn’t matter who you are facing. If you do not want to, just don’t. If you find the strength to defend yourself against opression, you will feel much better.
 
Also, child protection services is still a thing.

Things I wish I could have said to my parents:
 
”I don’t care what people think of my look and that includes you.”  
“Why can’t you just let me do what I want instead of what you want?!”  
“You’re not always right and I should’ve proven that years ago.”  
“Let me make my own choice!”  
“I wish you trusted me more.”  
“There’s more than one way to solve problems.”  
“I decide how I live! You can advice me, help me and even lecture me, but this is my choice!”  
“The status quo? It constantly changes that I can’t even call it to exist!”  
“I JUST WANT TO BE FREE!“
 
Man, that got dark fast. Now, I’m depressed and shit and feeling like the most worthless person yet.

*boops thread*

@Background Pony #D156  
Whut.

@GERgta  
Nooope. Were talking aboutthe show here though. :P

@Background Pony #D156, @atalarikt, @Background Pony #D156:  
*Raises hand* - Same here. I suppose the solution is just to be happy with someone else.
 
I mean, this world is definitely different from that in the show and you will never live out the same thing here (let’s be real), but you tend to forget that if you’re just happy with that someone. Then there’s no reason to be jealous.
 
Of course, that is easier said than done. It takes time to find that perfect partner, and it may doesn’t happen at all.
 
Actually, I was close. 4 times already. I guess I am just unlucky.

@HJSDGCE  
Oh, don’t get me wrong, I go out.

@Background Pony #D156  
You just need to get out more.

Heh, that much is true, more or less. I don’t like shipping all that much because I get jealous, which I know is very unhealthy because its just a freakin show. but still

@Background Pony #D156  
I can understand that very much. Hell, even I feel attached to many characters from both FiM and EqG. And I thought I was the only one here.
 
I guess the main reason we feel attached to these characters is because they look far more attractive than humans and/or any other creatures IRL. As for the solution, don’t ask me. I still have no idea.

@Meresflut  
That was the plan.  
Thanks anyway.

@HJSDGCE  
Its quite añright though if by your things you mean what you like but arent studying or peeparing for, it may peove a bit hard, curriculum and all. But I guess if there are veterinarians working as advisers in the government it could happen. However, I would strongly recommend at least taking a masters degree or sonething that its linked to your things.

@Meresflut  
A second career is a bit hard to manage, especially if I won’t need to. But you are right about one thing. Maybe I won’t have to change yet until I proven myself to the point where an opportunity appears which is better than the former.
 
Basically, do shitty things and my things and when a new job where my things is involved which gives similar or better rewards, I’ll take it.

Is it normal to feel attached to characters from the show? Yes I know the difference between reality and fantasy, but MLP/EQG is the first show I’ve seen where I got an attachment to characters, background ones too. I sometimes get jealous when hearing about ships, or seeing that the animators animate scenes that kinda make me jealous of seeing characters with other characters, and then the fans go all out with “canon this, or canon that” It depresses me. Anyone? I’m going as anon on this for now.