@PaperBagPony
I personally don’t think of myself as ‘edgy’, honestly, I don’t understand the term entirely. The reason is some people make ‘edgy’ comments and are all like “look what I just wrote, hehe.” They’re losers. I actually do have the knowledge of how to achieve some of my terrible goals but I still wouldn’t even if given the chance.
I would describe myself as ‘disturbed’ because I’m honest with myself.
I honestly don’t like ‘Nazis’ or ‘Neo-Nazis’. I’m not even white, I’m Hispanic, mestizo actually with possible more Spanish blood than Aztec blood, due to skin color. I don’t really even like white people. In fact, I WOULD put most of them into slave labor camps, along with other Hispanics, Asians and Middle Easterners.
I’d treat most people equal, equally harsh and cruelly. The only people ‘fit’ to live in “my world” would be those it PERSONALLY pick by hand.
Thus, I’m far more of a cult leader type personality. I don’t care so much about race and skin color or religion. I believe the only good people are those who I alone choose.
About Jews, I actually like Jews. Though, honestly, I don’t believe I know any personally, because after all how would I know if someone is Jewish or not. It’s not a race it’s a religion or belief. In order to know that you have to ask the person and they have to be willing to answer your question.
I would honestly try to recruit Jewish people, they’re smart and survivors. After all the things they’ve been put through throughout history, they’ve managed to survive and even thrive. That is not a easy thing to do in this world.
I know I sound like a horrible person, even my mother has told me that she wouldn’t associate with someone like me if I weren’t family.
But if you were to meet me, I’d treat you along with everyone else well, and as equals.
I just happen to have a seriously disturbed mind which I’ve learned to live with. I know my ideas are terrible and I’d never really put them into motion even if given the chance because there’s really no need to cause even more suffering in the world. There’s already far too much as is.
People who know me, very very few, know that I’m a person with two extremes, one is nice and sane, well mannered with a clear mind and a good heart, the other side is cruel, evil, twisted, warped and well, evil.
I once read Dr. Jackel and Mr. Heide and that story really sums things up nicely. The author actually studied people with personality disorders before writing the book, which explains a lot.
I hide and suppress the bad and try to allow the good to show through but the bad always still there.
I know what true hatred is and it is evil. So, I advise people at times to not allow it into themselves because it will destroy them from the inside out.
If people think the things I write are bad, well, I actually do censor most of my comments and posts. So, the stuff you all read is the stuff I’m deemed as ‘safe’ and ‘okay-ish’, not too extreme. Obviously, it doesn’t show, but it is censored.
About gays, I don’t even care about gays. It’s really none of my business.
But I will admit that at times I do kind of hate some of them, but it’s really not that they’re gay but that they’re arrogant and act high and mighty, gays judge too. I don’t like being judged, so, I respond poorly to those who do judge me or not at all if I feel that they’re so low and petty that it’s beneath me to even care.
Bottom line is: I’m two-sided, one side good, the other not so much. I don’t really hate anyone, but sometimes I really hate everyone. At times I care and at other times I don’t. I’m a person of extremes.
And no, I’m not bi-polar, believe it or not.
And yes, I know that I don’t make any sense. I know, my messages tend to controdict themselves and are very ‘here and there and everywhere’, I jump from topic to topic. That’s the whole two extreme and my constantly spinning mind at work.
“You should never hate someone. It’ll end up hurting you far more that it’ll ever hurt them. If you hate them so much, then why bother even thinking about or feeling any emotion towards them. If you hate them then they shouldn’t even be worth your time or thoughts.”
“The More You Know, The More You Wish You Really Didn’t.”