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Our plumbing is on the fritz. Whenever someone takes a shower for a long time pr uses the very high water setting on the washing machine, the downstairs bathroom floods like crazy.

@SleepySteve
There was nothing you could do, she was on her last legs. It’s best now to cherish all the memories you had with her.

I really can’t emphasize enough just how guilty I feel over my dog’s death yesterday. I’m still trying to process it.

The vets told us months ago that she had a tumor in her abdomen that was inoperable; as in, if they tried to operate on it there was a high risk of it spreading. So we essentially had her in mini-hospice; the fact that she made it to 13 just last month was miraculous. I thought she could make it to at least May or June, despite it becoming harder and harder for her to breathe.

This weekend was when things took a turn for the worse. At first I thought it was just the pollen making it difficult for her to breathe, but by Sunday she couldn’t move; I had to yank the leash even though I was told not to to get her to go outside for bathroom time, and even then she barely moved.

So imagine the horror when she, at her weakest point, decided to jump onto the couch, and I “helped” her by doing the worst thing possible: carrying her by her legs and bottom.

She was slumped, her mouth was open, and she was breathing at all. Then foam and fluids started coming out; she drowned from fluids in her lungs. And I, a 28 year old guy, melted down like crazy - alone with only her.

How can I get that out of my mind? I saw my dog die, and it’s partially my fault…

So of course it causes reproductive harm, but that’s the only underwear they make >=(

@ᎶㄖҜㄩ 乃ㄥ卂匚Ҝ
And I love those gators.

Florida will survive just because it’s too hot.

I get real negative sometimes, and everything boils down to human nature, and energy, and the planet. Garrett was right. I still Florida.

Still moving though. This ain’t the place for me right now. Mostly because I end up doing labor work in the sun, and I got no support when I get sick.

@Hima
Except for the Everglades. It’s still an alligator-infested swamp.

America is the worst developed in terms of transportation. Because it was developed from an economic bubble from the industrial revolution.

Everything is built really far away.

I got muscular just from biking several miles to get alcohol every day.

In America you can drive a full countries length and get nowhere. Florida is nothing but concrete and waste.

I’m pretty sure this is also a common problem amongst developing countries.

America might be struggling from mass transportation problems, meanwhile here were problematic about the shitload amount of cars that’s causing block by block traffic everywhere in Manila 24/7. And that’s because each and every single person owns a car and probably owns more than one. The population congestion rate here is inconceivably high in global scale, then so are our cars, many cars means running out of parking space. That’s why people here get mad if their cars parked right in front of their house get clamped when it’s parked on the side of the road and these angry people rant about their cars getting towed because their ail is “EY THIS WAS PARKED ON MY SIDE OF THE HOUSE SO MY SPACE, MY RULES!” but still, parking on the side of the road is illegal.

What truly ails this city is they do not expand the land area of the Metropolis (except those reclaimed landfills by the sea) or develop other towns to become a highly urbanized city to decongest the entirety of Manila itself.

I used to vent that this country needed to regulate all the amount of people buying cars in a single city so that they could use public transport to decongest the whole city.

@ЅℰℒᎯℙℋℐℰℒ
No, I ride the bus, which tends to get way behind the schedule a lot of times.

@ᎶㄖҜㄩ 乃ㄥ卂匚Ҝ
It has made me late to work numerous times, which my managers let it slide since they know that I use the bus and that I’m a good employee.

@Nightfall Gloam
Yeah, some courses can help you with that, and it’s also good to find your own style as well.

@𝐒𝐞𝐚𝐫
It’s only going to get hotter.

Poor people will be the ones forced to live in the inhospitable environments global warming has created.

Plants and animals have a delicate balance that lets us live. We’re intentionally destroying all the plants, and releasing all the dead animal carbon into the air at the same time.

There is reason to feel good though. Nobody is shielded from it, the rich think they’re going to mars, or invent some air conditioning that breaks the laws of physics, but they’re all going to die the same way we are.

Fucking gave myself laryngitis because I got very upset.

@𝐒𝐞𝐚𝐫
It happens, clean the wound and let the blood dry so it heals.

Fuck, my uncle got bit by his own dog, the dog isn’t even rabies vaccinated because grandma refused to have it vaccinated because she thinks she is a kind dog but NOOOOOO she still bit uncle.

This summer heat is to blame why the seemingly shy and quiet dog acted viciously.

47.9°C here again at 3 o clock in the afternoon.

Everything in this country is becoming combustible.

I always see news every single day about fires.

Thanks! Right now, I’m thinking I might just clean my slate and actually try to learn the fundamentals, including anatomy. Probably would help a lot considering how I already know certain poses can be a bit deceptive in their difficulty. Won’t be deleting anything that is still up though.
I did try to learn anatomy last year, but it was done in a really disoragnized way, relying on random art blogs found on Google, and I don’t think I really understood anything. Hopefully a good, clear, dedicated course (preferably free, but will spend any amount of money if I need to) will help, along with criticism from forums such as here. (I assume its fine to post studies unrelated to pony in the Art forum here? Wouldn’t mind genuine criticism from a website I regularly go to)
Doesn’t help that I also regularly felt the pressure to post something, anything online and ended up rushing everything. THAT along with the procrastination are two really unhealthy things I need to work on.

Basically, that Lighthoof and Shimmy Shake bunny suit drawing I recently deleted has really caused me to re-evaluate much of my mentality, habits and life choices, and I don’t entirely want to give up art either. nor do I want to make all the same mistakes again, just hoping I’m not beyond repair.

I swear my reactors of my posts on the UFC group in Facebook are sometimes like these hahaha.

@ЅℰℒᎯℙℋℐℰℒ
His bus service probably sucks, like the rest of the USA’s bus systems.

@Mr.Myoozik
YOu got no public transit at your place?

Dammit! Maps won’t let me copy images.

Fuck it I can swipe it off Facebook

Damn, I should really need to start saving up to buy a car in the future because looking up a simple used car, I don’t have enough money to afford one.

@Nightfall Gloam
Thanks, but I don’t like comparing my art to others, it’s not fair to others or myself. About your art though, at least you have lineart down and what can definitely help you are tutorials and guides on how to do anatomy since most of your art is EQG. It’s good to take a break to sort things out though.

@SleepySteve
I’m sorry to hear that.

@𝐒𝐞𝐚𝐫
Damn indeed, must be dehydration.

I almost had heat stroke on two occassions of separate years. 2022 and last year.

2022, I prolly ate too much sweets and my bp got out of control.
2023, I bathe under the intense 12:00 PM sunlight just to see the solar eclipse.

The lessons I have learned from this unforgiving summer humidity is to hydrate.

@𝕭𝖆𝖉𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
That’s hot!
You have a fever?

118° Fahrenheit probably doesn’t help.

Fainting sounds scary, I didn’t think it was such a common occurrence.

God damn man….