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Enjoy the pics people. Bye.

I was so much happier when I left this forum for 4 months.
 
But I’m tired of it. If people can get away with calling me names and such because they’re popular, then I don’t need to be here. Hopefully soon I’ll break from it entirely, shut this account down and avoid every inch of the fandom as possible. I also don’t like certain staff here.
 
So I’m gone. I won’t miss anyone.

I’ve been in it for 5 years. Met some really terrible people but very very few nice ones. I’m just tired of the bullies. They’re allowed to say whatever to anyone and get away with it because it’s labeled as a “joke”. I’m also tired of giving it too many chances.

This site is not for me.

@Toyminator900  
You can still call me names if it makes you feel better.

@Luna  
Request to whom?

Can account termination be requested or is a simple random password a good thing when closing it out? I don’t plan on using it anymore is all.

I don’t know anymore. I’m tired of this. Being called names in one thread, being told I’m the one who’s bad.
 
If I request staff to remove my account, will that be possible or do I just need to make a random password and just leave?

@Watermelon Changeling  
I’m allowed to post here.

@Background Pony #EC63  
Because I am, and knowing how I’m treated and not wanting to do the things others do, has made my personality develop in a way to purposefully be different out of rebellion. I’m on no one’s side but my own. I’ve tried to change that, but none are brave or strong enough to see the good intentions.
 
Many will choose to see me as depression. Even when I’m actually happy. Many will choose to bring up the things I’ve done and how bad I did it instead of just saying that I have a major problem, with no help, that has lingered inside of me for so long and that I can’t help it with the best of my efforts sometimes. I will be told how bad I am for the rest of my life. That I’m not doing it right but never really giving guidance other than saying I’m terrible at things.

@Background Pony #EC63  
Pretty difficult when people add more to it. All through my life I’ve dealt with the curse of being different. The years have passed by and today I honestly wished I could stop living. Not in a sad and depressing way, but that I’ve honestly tried enough and see no way out of defeating my demons. The bad thing is I’m not suicidal so I can’t do it myself and would rather seek assisted-suicide if I could. There’s a high risk with that, being many would just want to lock me up, staring at a padded wall, away from society, mostly neglected as I am now. To find someone that understands my desire without anymore trouble is almost impossible. Even therapy has limits of being unable to keep things confidential once you’re in danger to yourself. It’s a sad situation.
 
No one really gets that I just want to stop it all. The chances of getting out of the hole are so slim, and I’m tired, so tired of trying. I say that, with a smile, if I could leave, I would do it. Anytime.

It’s fine. I know I’m cluttering it all up and being “annoying” because I’m not included as being a friend or at least someone known a little bit. I’ll leave.

@Holofan4life  
Because he’s your friend, right?

@Background Pony #EC63  
I’m not.

@gexon_pane  
So it’s totally fine for some users to bypass the rules I guess?

@Meanlucario  
Probably because they come off as acting superior and treating me like an idiot because I have depression or finding fault in everything as if what I say is always wrong and my experience is made-up.
 
I think it’s best I stop it there though. I’m already seen as a terrible person as it is.

@gexon_pane  
Yeah it’s really friendly, especially being called whiney and that I’m fucking hated and to get out of the thread. Very welcoming.

@Meanlucario  
Having depression or giving hints that something is “wrong” with someone else usually leads to others assuming other handicaps discriminatively, sometimes without even knowing it. Much like race and gender does. It’s part of our brain to over-analyze.

@Background Pony #F1C6  
Why make someone else feel bad?

It’s not a good feeling to be treated as a disease either.

@gexon_pane  
It’s a truth I know better than anyone. I know I’m different. It’s just easier said than done to simply just change it overnight. I only assumed MLP had more than enough people that are different and more accepted for it. Figured it would be my place. Not sure if I’m right to think that though.

I reject those who don’t accept who I am.

@Background Pony #F1C6  
I’d love to meet that person then. It’s difficult to think highly of oneself when the majority of ones life has been told these things to believe them.

I’m used to it. I don’t do very many things correctly.