Tehehe
You got to see the big picture of what you can do and what not must do from this point. You have created these specials galore to yourself in a time you felt like an achievement and joy, why are stopping?
Don’t be harsh on yourself, you’ll do great whatever you choose to move on!
I don’t know if your hesitation to draw comes from a high quality bar you set for yourself,out of shame for shipping Starless with multiple mares or seeing no value or meaning in doing it. The important thing is that you find enjoyment in the things you do, even if it’s just a little. If you don’t get that in general while drawing or writing than it’s okay if you don’t want to do it.
If it’s because of the shipping, it’s quite interesting if your OC can hook up with multiple quality mares.
Make a villain with a tragic or silly backstory, make an OC who is raised by timberwolves, make an OC who wants to rid Equestria of bubblegum and starts a war because of it or an OC who has so much game that he gets all the mares but changes relationships by the month and feels conflicted about it, anything goes!
If it’s about seeing no meaning in drawing the things you want to draw because the fandom and everything around it will die out eventually wherever for better or for worse I share your view but maybe experience it differently. I don’t do/make/learn things in life with the underlying thought that it will be preserved somehow but am aware that the skills I learn will be forgotten, the things I draw lost and the data I saved corrupted. It’s only a matter of time. Therefore I do all these things to enjoy it here and now while I can and don’t feel worried if it would be controversial or bad. I feel free to do whatever I want because no matter how I fill in my time now not a soul will remember that over a hundred years.
Because I never enjoyed drawing and I keep getting lazier and lazier.
No I should be harsh on myself. It helps keep me from going completely insane and a harsh truth is better than a supportive lie
I bet you spent a lot of time designing and finishing every piece you made even if it looks effortless. Honestly, You should recognize that talent and perseverance you went through the process, so, I’m so proud of how much you’ve worked on each art you have uploaded.
^ ^
Now that is something that I can agree totally, it’s fine to be aware of what we do negatively or positively.
I guess I can see a bit through your oc is the reflection of you irl, like, in some point of venting about yourself, so, if that’s the case, why bother feeling bad about Starless being a total jerk if it’s his thing to do, like his rol of being what and who it is?
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