Hi, Hello everyone, yes, it is me. Today we are going to talk about sensitive topics. This is what I experienced in 2018.  
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My relatives have asked me why you have no money all the time. Is there no job, no money, or you just use your money buy the game or fun…Don’t you even give money to your family?….I spend all my money on watercolor, paper, brush, traffic and other water Colour Mediums. Why don’t you use digital art, it’s convenient, you don’t have to spend money, it’s easy to be famous.. yes i know, digital art is easy to becoma a famous..but i like to use traditional art. But now the society is different. If I don’t learn digital art anymore, I may never be famous, I can’t make money, I can’t even find a job. Every company requires digital art. . Can we only draw landscape art with these traditional art? Do you think that I am worse than using digital art! I am much stronger than them, they can undo, we cant, so we have to draw each pen very carefully every time because we cant undo! SO, WHO STRONG NOW! You know each of my artworks.. I need to repeat the painting several times.. i want to give you guys the best. But maybe.. i can go digital art and give up my traditional art , so i can easy find a job about art or easy to be famous , I have more time to play games with my friends?  
do you guys want me to give up traditional art and focus on digital art ?  
comment below and tell me what is your think, but I don’t think anyone will look at it because I no a famous artist  
(and thank who keep support me , i very very thank you i dont know what can i say)
 
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It’s the last one… I have recently painted NSFW. I have never said that I am a cute artist , because it is time for me to try to paint something new. So I choose new things (NSFW) to draw, you can’t stop me  
DA, Fb, Tumblr = only SFW  
Pixiv, Twitter, derpibooru = SFW and NSFW  
If you can’t accept it, you can quit.  
This is my choice, what I want to draw
 
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Why i don’t have a normal job?  
If i have, you guys will never even see me again, because I am always 100% focused on completing my work. Every time I come back from work, I will have no strength to paint again. (I tried it before, I haven’t touched it after 1 year.) Because my body is weak, I am very tired every time I do something. I go to sleep right away every time I go home, I won’t play games or draw painting. After that my family asked me what you want to do and what you want. I chose to paint. I know this road is very difficult, but I want to paint instead of deprecating my painting for work. I have not worked hard? I spend 17 hours painting every day… now, I don’t know if I choose right or wrong. .
 
Finally, if you guys see the end, I thank you again for your support. You guys are my pillar. Without you guys, maybe i already in another world  
This story is the meaning of this work.