Wew, what did I kick off here all of a sudden. @HJSDGCE
You sound surprised.
I failed because the rope was not long enough to properly get it around the wooden beam in my apartment, and because some guy I don't even care about annoyed me in Steam to play games with him. Great fucking reasons to continue living, amirite? @atalarikt
I hope I got that correctly that you were kinda over the stuff from your school? Because if so, pretty much the only advice I can give you is:
Stick to what keeps you going while it lasts. =] @And Brother I Hurt People
I get what you mean. But allow me to ask this one question: Do you have to be able to put into words exactly who and what you are? I think the persons who can do that just like that are pretty shallow tbh. You are what you are.
But from your description, I'd suggest evaluating what exactly you makes you feel the way you feel, and why, several times a day. Consider writing that down somewhere, too, for your eyes only. Maybe go talk to a psychologist. It could be a difficult but "normal" time in your adolescence just as it could be signs of a bipolar disorder or something similar.
And I know that doesn't sound like much, but common sense as well as intelligence, education or w/e you wanna call it… are very
relative things. And I'm entirely serious when I say that the more you know, the more you begin to realize how little you really know. I know what I'm talking about with this one. You questioning your own abilities in this is a rather good sign imo, although not to that extent. @HJSDGCE
said. You're in charge of your life, especially your career and your hobbies. Parents are often like that, but don't let it keep you from doing what you really want. I myself am kinda about to escape from my parents, I hope that I can get out of here by next month, moving into my own flat or whatever. Probably because of different reasons for the most part, but my point is: With this kind of stuff, it should be your choice, and your choice only.
And if all else fails, keep it up as a mere hobby then! People should rather identify themselves through their hobbies than their jobs. The same goes for And Brother I Hurt People
How are you, b0ss?