For quite a while, I’ve been playing around with an idea I had about a humanized setting. In this particular story, the focus is mainly on Spike. He’s a human-dragon hybrid here- he’s not sure about exactly how much of himself is human and how much is dragon, but knows he’s at least half because he was hatched out of an egg like in the original show.
That’s pretty standard for most humanized versions of Spike. What’s different here is that he was born looking like this:
… Okay, maybe it’s not quite that dramatic, but overall he definitely looks more dragon then he does human.
But he doesn’t just look different. He stronger, faster, and more resilient than normal humans, he can breathe fire, and he feels emotions much more strongly than a normal human does.
And Spike is utterly
terrified of himself because of all that. He can hide his real appearance so he looks like a normal human (though whether it’s a disguise Twilight made for him or part of his own power, I haven’t decided just yet), but he always feels that he has to tread very carefully, out of the fear that he might accidentally hurt one of his friends because of his strength.
Also, he matures faster than the normal human does, because of his partially Dragon physiology. Meaning, he gets to go through The worst aspects of both human and dragon puberty. Because of his surging hormones, he’s very strongly attracted to all of his friends (including Twilight), but is in incredibly deep denial about it, partially because he’s afraid of hurting them, and partially because he’s afraid that he might lose control and… force himself on them. So, he doesn’t like to spend any time around his friends when they’re alone, on the off chance that something does happen and they can’t fight him off.
To put it simply, Spike believes in all sincerity that he’s a monster. And he is terrified that his friends would find out the truth about him, and think the same way.
I’m not entirely sure where this fear comes from. I thought about maybe having it tied to some kind of childhood trauma (specifically, an angry mob trying to kill him with Twilight protecting him), or it could be that he simply knows about the reputation of dragons, and is terrified that he might one day become like them. But wherever it comes from, it almost completely paralyzes him.