@archestereo
well keep in mind the part where I said that, absolute isn’t truly absolute, at least it doesn’t correlate with our nature as humans, there is always going to be more or some things we’ll not be well prepared for.
What I’m simply explaining here is what mindset I’m going to face it all with.
I guess it is weak but hey, we’re all only human after all and that’s a fact we have to accept. Take it from history, humans a much longer time ago barely had working television and had better living conditions as far as income was involved, but humans long before that, the ones of the dark ages, well, let’s just say our worst conditions still fare a lot better than theirs did.
and yet, even with this digital wonder and so many things that we have not just simply available to us, but so easily available too, we still take most of it for granted and I can attest doing the same.. we can’t appreciate everything equally, but we should be aware of just how far we’ve come along.
see, I don’t wanna break apart from this human history and evolution process that we’ve all been a part of, I know it sounds amazing, but reality is something you can’t really take lightly, this is why I’m simply saying that this is the mindset with which I’m happy to face all these challenges of life with, it’s what feels most right for me to do. As for being at peace with myself, I simply don’t worry about that too much, not in ways that I just can’t simply control, like my future 20 years from now in life.. that’s a little far for me to be thinking about things, as well as 60-80 years from now when I might die. so, I don’t really care about any of that.
there’s pensions, there’s still your house, family that you can start, or become a part of someone else’s family (divorced/widow spouse) and other things for that, but right now I got a life to live.
but even then, one last thing I’ll mention I guess about risk is this, I did take my fair share of risks, one major one being me going into another country for university education. An awful big risk for someone who has to find a place to stay there and also know the language of said country too, not the best choice if it doesn’t work out and I get completely overwhelmed by the things I gotta handle in those few years, but it did eventually work out, it was difficult and, probably for the first time ever, I’ve been very happy with that decision.
I hadn’t been the most brilliant student there, I’ll say that much, but I’ve learned a lot about another country’s studying scheme and system, I’ve learned about the industry I wanna embark on and I’ve started to develop skills in a certain career path that I intend to take on, which is really more than I can say for any college or middle school education here I had on those things, now finally, it’s at that point where I either do something about it or just fall like a dumbass and waste it all.. after which I’ll have to pick up with another thing immediately, else I’ll just fuck myself for life, or struggle a lot to gain footing, which is probably what I’ll intend on doing one way or the other.