@Background Pony #7DD0
He’s kinda successful now. There is a reason I don’t ask him for things, because what you just said is exactly what happened.
Me and my dad are both narccissistic neurotypicals. Would gladly use the word autistic for myself if it suited me, then exploit an actual autistic person. I’m no longer like this, mostly stopped being a asshole when I left my dad, until i get stressed out enough
Brother got a differential diagnosis of aspergers. He’s quite socially aware and capable. For a while he would prefer to be called aspergers because he got tired of people using autism as an insult.
I’m prob just borderline, confusing manic behaviors, and rapid glorifying/devaluing of life values, as well as delusions of grandeur and intense fear of abandonment. I think it means being on the border of crazy and just neurotic. Malingering and self diagnosing as antisocial are par for the coarse, so is the disassociation I think autistic people have too.
This is cluster b stuff, i have issues sometimes like autism, but more obviously something else.. You’re not susposed to mention cluster b stuff with anyone on the internet, just your therapist. This account is where I make edgy art, and speak honestly, no employer will know who Beth is, been thinking about cleaning up and rebranding anyway (while keeping the name and character I’m using for my friends).
Lot of TMI I’m sure, I’ll be careful so it doesn’t fuck up my ability to get work. The art commissions are going to be done in a new order (where pay is after) this way has no trouble getting work. After I catch up on some work I owe people though. I got to stay looking for regular work in the meantime, no place to live would mean no art.